If sub consciousness is to be formed by the social rules of my being,
Could I ever dream of an island where sexual liberty
Is the only form of freedom, where
Emotions are put in the ball sack and consent speaks from the vagina.
If my conscience is made up of a billion neurons that possess infinite degree of freedom Then I
Shall not be talking about sex with a friend I met a week ago, or any friend from tinder, wait? Are we supposed to make friends on tinder?
And if you say yes, then are you telling me to be friends with a person who reduced the elements of my identity to a set of five pictures showing smiles that have been captured only to be stolen from the moment they lived in, for me to get objectified and to let a mobile screen decide whether I’m Left or Right?
But wait, there’s still tinder on my phone, and maybe
Grindr or Her, maybe hidden or encrypted for in my world
Sexuality craves for privacy and privacy is a privilege.
In my world,
Or should I say,
The world I’m subjected to,
My existence is timed by the clocks of capitalism and the dogma of the metaphysical
My existence is not a space that I carve out for myself but a void I’m subjected to fill in,
But this, this is your world, the world
Plagued by the science of religion and religious faith in science
So I choose to live in my world,
Not escape, but live
A world where memories are not atoms and molecules of thermodynamics so that I can choose to fill the unfinished painting with my own colours
A world where emotions are not correlative with circumstances and I can be non-conforming to the expected norms of emotional behaviour, I can
Be happy for the greatest tragedy for I know it is not greater than my will to be happy
A world where happiness is all pervasive and the moments of grief are merely my disability to trace happiness in the most ordinary of manifestations
A world where being human is not to make mistakes and fall but to be strong and achieve one’s own spirituality
In my world, my existence is not defined by the realities of the physical world around me, but
By the diversity and freedom that I know I’m made up of.
So, if my consciousness and sub consciousness ever sit to have a meaningful conversation on a dinner table..
Never look for me in the physics of this world,
But in the relativity of mine, where
Cosmos, gizmos and Homos (Sapiens) coexist